I haven't posted anything in a while. This week we opened the greenhouse and I have been working balls to th wall all week. The people I work for are a family owned business from Minnesota who set up satelite greenhouses in parking lots around the state. The company now runs 26 of these satelites and is finding themselves having to order in many plants such as tropicals, shrubs, and perrenials, as they are not able to keep up with the demand. Our sites are rather large for a small operation, and we just began to set up the one that I work at, this last Monday. We have taken delivery of truckload after truckload of product all week, until I couldn't barely stand up straight or walk anymore.

It has been absolutely crazy also as we have all new hires and the manager had quit at the last minute. They offered me a position of assitant manager/ manager in training with a substantial raise, which I accepted. Which REALLY doubled my work load. I have off the weekend and I am going to need it just to recuperate. I am beyond exhaustion to the point of not being able to think, and having a very difficult time walking up and down the steps in the house.
 
It is most frustrating to find myself this unbearably tired and sore, but I finally have an answer to ALL of the medical problems that have plagued me for the last ten years, especially the fatigue, memory loss and mental confusion, depression, shakes, and inability to keep my balance which often has me crashing into walls. It is not my thyroid as suspected, but instead is a severe B12 deficiency. The condition is quite serious, but treatable. I have to go in for regular injections for the next 6 months after which they will test me again. Depending on those results, I will either have to continue with injections or begin a round of oral medication. If I cannot absorb the B12 orally, then I am looking at daily injections for the rest of my life, much like a diabetic. This is good news in that I should regain my mental functions, as well as recover from the fatigue. However, any damage done to the central nervous system is permanent. Time will only tell the extent.
 
It is a relief to know that this has not been all in my head nor do I suffer from hypochondria or dementia. And I am soooo thrilled that it is something treatable rather than some of the things they had mentioned, like early onset parkinson's. Also, I am relieved that I don't have to keep pushing against this fatigue and trying to pretend that I feel good. My husband never understood the level of fatigue that I have to endure on a daily basis, and so I tried to hide it or fake it. It is a relief to say, "I'm tired. I need a nap." and to not be barraged with guilt.

I'm uncertain what I am going to be doing this weekend, but am looking forward to the downtime. I hope to catch up on LJ friends, emails, and a few things around the house. Other than that, I'm laying low. I hope that all of my beautiful women friends, both online and off, have a wonderful Mother's Day. Whether or not you have children, this day should be celebrated by all, because the nurturing of a woman is what makes this world go round.